Senin, 16 Mei 2011

I Love Myself


What do you think when you hear word "love"?
I think we have a lot of definitions about that. Depending who's speak. Love is a simple word and everybody can spell it clearly, but have very large definition and meaning. Thank God you've made a love for your entire creature so we can live peacefully with this love.

It's easy to say that you love someone right now. But the problem is, why the people still fight each other and do not tolerance about differences between us, although they have love? Ok, that's the prologue. I just want to share what I thinking this time. Let's go to the story...


This is Sunday morning, I really want to meet her now.
Everyday I spend for about 3 or 4 hours in a day to accompany her.
who is her?
Let me tell you guys, she is a cheerful and warm girl with the most lovely eyes I've ever seen in this world, Titi, my girlfriend. This is a contradiction, I feel black and blue when I describe who she is, because now she lying on a hospital bed. Yup, she has been sick. I love her so much, umm... maybe the word "love" can't describe what I feel, I feel more than love. She's my heart, if lose her I lose my heart and die. These words aren't hyperbolic, these words from deep inside my heart.

As usual I bring her favorite fruits, apple and grape.
I already know what she will say when I bring this stuff. She will say, "Hey, am I already in heaven? I see an angel come to me and smiling right now". I just can't say anything when she said these words. Frozen in time.

4 weeks after that magical moment, the information about her disease, her mom told me that she got a special heart attack. I swore, I felt numb at the moment. It was unbelievable, I thought she just incured jaundice from her symptoms.

What should I did?

Oh my God!

I tried to make myself quite, took a deep breath, positive thinking. Her disease wasn't ordinary heart attack, Everybody knew that. It's caused died.

Day by days, I came to her, her conditions became so weak and she never said what she ussualy said when I came. I couldn't counted how much pain and tears that dripped from my eyes, her disease is my disease too. "The only way to keep her alive is a new heart", the doctor said to me.

God, I pray for your miracle...


This is Sunday morning, Titi get back her smile and her new life. Thank God for your miracle. Now, I can rest in peace on your side.

Goodbye my love.. Glad to see your smile from here, I love you more than I love myself.

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